Anyone who has been touched by suicide knows the what-ifs and
questions we torment ourselves with: What could I have done
differently? What if I was there? What if I had said this or
done that? Was it my fault? Ultimately we are left with no
one to ask but ourselves. Understanding that there is
nothing we could have done, said or changed will ease the
questions and contribute to our healing.

The question we then ask is how do we get
there? For me, I know what worked. I went to a medium,
sought therapy, I talk about his life and death openly and
build castles with the good memories and slowly sift through
the rest. It isn't easy but I know he is very much alive and
well, just not quite in the line of sight. This worked for
me but we are all different. Some people may be comfortable
with therapy, some people may just want support from family
and friends, while others seek support groups because family
and friends may cause too many painful memories. Whatever
the case you have come to the right place.      



When suicide first crashed into my life (Sept '04) I looked
for this information but instead encountered a barrage of
resources for people who wanted to commit suicide rather
than people who had lost someone to it. That prompted this list.
Suicide has changed me. Inevitably, whether we like it or
not, change is a huge part of life. Since we are still alive
we must persevere and live even if it is without this person
we love so dearly. It can be done and eventually the passage
of time will slowly lessen the acute pain and grief. We will
see them again.

My Medium Readings & Suicide

I have not been doing medium readings that long. Honestly, I
have no long history of talking to those that have crossed
over in my recollection. I do have many memories that now
make sense of being psychic or intuitive but I think we all
do at some level. I only started to doing medium readings
after I realized I could and that was only after my boyfriend
passed. I do not usually hear him say anything but I get
lots of signs. So I started asking my friends and practicing
on people. I would say, give me a name and don't tell me
anything else and eventually I didn't need a name. What
started happening was amazing to me as well as some of the
people I read. I do not profess by any means to be anywhere
near the talent of a John Edwards or Sylvia Browne but once I
realized I could do it a strange thing started to happen.
Most of the medium readings I did were suicides. I didn't
seek them out or tell them my story but they seem to come to
me and the messages I receive from the other side are pretty
similar most of the time.